There is a Korean vampire story that scares and inspires. It is of a woman who has been murdered and is doomed to roam the streets looking to avenge her death by drinking others’ blood. However, the blood never sates her thirst. It’s almost a typical vampire story – only the vampire is one woman and her victims never turn. Her roaming is endless; her search always finding victims, but not satiation. She has black hair, white skin, blood dripping from her mouth. She glides rather than walks; she is a silent killer. You might turn around in the street one night and see her following you. You might recognize her; you might remember her from dreams. If you do, you know you’ve been one of the lucky few to escape. Count your blessings all the way home. Go home now. Run. Lock your door, even though it won’t keep her out. Pray to your deity; they might keep you safe. Most of all – don’t look into her eyes and fall under her spell. She is beautiful; she is heartless. She is.
How do you feel about destroying what must be destroyed in your life?
I feel like it’s destroying part of me. Surely everything in my life is there for a reason. Otherwise, I would be smart and destroy it, right? Wrong. This got me thinking. I have things to destroy. So what do I need to destroy?
- My addiction to work being my “value”.
- My apparent inability to be happy with who I am.
- My relationship with F. (More to come in a following post.)
- My incessant need for absolute financial security, which is tying me to a job that I’m not sure I want.
- My inability to let go of things.
- My procrastination. (Tips, anyone?)
- My time-wasting activities.
To start with, this is a small general list. It needs refinement and explicitness. I am working on it.
Danielle says that in order to create, we must first destroy some things. I agree to a certain level – and I deeply desire creation in my life right now. Ergo, I must destroy.
But first, to round up the voices in my mind that are scared of destruction. Time to go.
Inspired by Danielle Laporte and her post on Your relationship to destruction, Goddess Kali, and Fridays with desire. #DesireMap